(I'm coming home to you) Every Night

I never thought this day would come.

Okay just kidding. That's melodramatic.

But I'm down to less than 3 months.

Remember this post?

Well we are almost through these 2 years of service he has dedicated to the Lord.

I would be lying if I said I wasn't thrilled.

But I am worried.

What if he comes home and doesn't like me.

At the end of that post I am talk about maybe being available.

Well. I'm available.

And whenever I talk to him I remember how much I like him and what a good person he is.

I just can't wait to hug him.

80 days.

This will fly by.

See you again

Here it is.

Another ending post.

The end of another semester here at Utah State University.

Another end of another school year.

Just one left.

What did I do with this one?

Let me show you.

I went bowling

Spent time with my best friends

Road tripped for work

Went to basketball games

Had a Valentine's day party

Valentine's day dinner with the girls

Spent time in the President's box

Visited this cute family

Remembered I loved my major

Drove to California

The beach.

Disneyland.

The temple.

Plants.

THE BEACH

Did math homework.

And mostly just missed my family.

Tell me why?

I just want to know why certain people are in my life. 

That's all I ask. 

Why?

Learn to Love Yourself

I am slowly learning things about myself.

Like the fact that if you are important to me I will drop whatever I am doing to do anything for you.

Whatever you need.

Anytime.

Anything.

Does this make me vulnerable? Yes. Probably more than I would like to admit to anyone.

This also makes me susceptible to feeling left out, lonely, or hurt when I don't feel that same loyalty.

Sometimes this also translates into me acting funny around a certain group of people. And by funny I mean unable to be myself. I'm a fun, outgoing, and mostly comfortable around people.

But if I feel as if my friendship with a person is being threatened I shut down. Almost completely.

I'm working on it. And I hope I can find someone that makes me feel like I can call them day or night with any problem and they will be there for me.

Let's Start the New Year Right.

This year has definitely been one of the strangest for me.

It started with no roommate, living alone and trying to figure out who I was.

I started the A-Team with little knowledge of what I was getting myself into.

I remembered old friends, and I made some dang good new ones.

I ate waffles. Lots and lots of waffles.

I made phone calls.

I blew up balloons.

I spent time with Seth, Haley, Kelsey, Ashley and Sarah.

I became an aunt.

I wore a blue polo for most of the summer.

I ate.

I went to weddings.

I stuffed envelopes.

I played outside.

I played inside.

I had the 2nd best summer of my life so far. (Sorry 2013, 2012 has you beat.)

I learned about myself and what I can bring to my job.

I spent a lot of time with 17 and 18 year olds.

I became a fashion designer. Just give me a puzzle and a hot glue gun.

I roller skated.

I had a boyfriend.

I didn't have a boyfriend anymore.

I tried to convince my sister that USU was the place for her. No luck. Duke here she comes. (hopefully)

I went on road trips. Many road trips.

I wrote emails. Every week.

I became myself.

And I like who I am. Even though I have more growing to do. Thanks 2013. You taught me a lot.

Missing You

Life is interesting.

My last posts were about good friends and Michael.

And that is still what I am thinking about.

I have really tried to "forget about him" I even dated someone else for awhile.

but he is always in my thoughts and prayers.

The people of Canada are so lucky to watch him grow up and become a more humble and loving person.

I can just tell in his emails that he is growing so much.

I just hope I measure up.

I think this is the one thing that I am panicking about. I know there is no need to panic because he still has a little over 6 months left on his mission, but I just worry he will come home this spiritual giant and I am going to disappoint him.

I just need him to come back so I can talk to him about this stuff. It is so important, but can't be discussed through email or letter.

6 months. I can do this.

Make New Friends

I want to introduce you to some people.

Hayley, Haley, Kortney, Seth

Sarah, Haley, Megan, Kortney, Hayley, Seth

Seth, Hayley (Text Message sent to Haley)

Notice any common names?

Seth. And Haley.

Basically we are best friends. (I think, I hope I'm not overstepping any bounds here.)

What would I do without them?

Fail Biology.