I am slowly learning things about myself.
Like the fact that if you are important to me I will drop whatever I am doing to do anything for you.
Whatever you need.
Anytime.
Anything.
Does this make me vulnerable? Yes. Probably more than I would like to admit to anyone.
This also makes me susceptible to feeling left out, lonely, or hurt when I don't feel that same loyalty.
Sometimes this also translates into me acting funny around a certain group of people. And by funny I mean unable to be myself. I'm a fun, outgoing, and mostly comfortable around people.
But if I feel as if my friendship with a person is being threatened I shut down. Almost completely.
I'm working on it. And I hope I can find someone that makes me feel like I can call them day or night with any problem and they will be there for me.
